Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The Need for Need !!

I somehow come back to this space whenever I feel the need to. Thats rare in itself. We don't really need anything nowadays do we? Or is it just me? 38 knocking on my window pane and i have stopped needing..fairly early to give in to life I say.

But then, I don't even see kids engaging with that emotion, the raw longingness of need.
U want, u get...rather anti climactic, i would say.

At least I had a childhood where need was not artificially created by my parents...today, I make a conscious effort not to give everything my son's heart desires so that he can feel the want becoming a need, slow and steady...

I felt like coming back to this place today because for the last few days I can see that need building up in him. His eyes shine, theres a fervour in the way he speaks....
theres a course that Wharton or Stanford has started on Harry Potter & the Future of Illusion....he asked me how to get there.
I smiled..you know one of those secret motherly quirky twist of the lips which just indicates 'caught u'.....

so now, I have a 'needy' kid, willing to give studies his best shot while he searches the net for Potter's wand....he has a globe on one side and google on the other...the two biggest warriors of this century I would say.

And, I have my need..at near 38...to give him the magic he deserves.....