Monday, November 26, 2007

No Curtains

Have you ever had one of those days where u want to do everything unconnected with what u ought to be doing…

Today is one of those days…

I want to say things which amount to gibberish…
talk like a four yr old..
throw tantrums..
have panic attacks and then giggle fits…..
not look at that horrible thing on ur hand called a watch…
just dream the day away

I wanna talk about love today…that's unconnected alright with what I ought to be doing.

I’m a believer…never ever questioned why.
Actually that's not surprising, in my personal life I never really question much…
more often than not, I try getting to the answer.
Haha, that's why it works more for others than for me.

I do love and I am in love.

That means that I do feel the rush of blood even though it may be bursting someone else’s veins. Well, that's not a very romantic way of putting it, is it???

Ok let me give u the unabridged version since I have taken it upon myself to act contrary to the demands of established demeanor today.

I love like no tomorrow. I also love without a past.
I love saying ur name even when I’m alone, especially when I’m alone
I love to an end and that is always u
I love the fact that u give me my most loyal friends, my tears
I also love the fact that that gives me my most awaited moment, of u wiping them away
I love the happiness you bring to my life by just being my life
I love u enough to never ask why ...

My mom always raised us to live in a curtainless home…
we don’t have curtains at our place…
she feels very proud of the fact that she has built such a sanctuary where the need to hide emotions is counter productive.

However, she lives with a value system that I find difficult to unlearn, for her and, for myself.

The one promise that I deliver on each moment of my life is the above mentioned.

Love has no conditions.

I love because I can’t not love.

Its not mushy.

Its not romantic.

Its just there.

I love you because u’re the only person that makes me live upto my mom’s dream of no curtains.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Take The Chance

I’ve succumbed to the charms of my wants.
I’ve dreamt of opening a restaurant for so many years now.
So now, I’m acting upon it.

I don’t have the money to open the shack I want to own.
I have ideas.
They come free.

Anyone interested in investing your hard earned money on my ideas..pls pls pls get in touch with me.

I’m totally serious. The responsibility of creating and running the space will be mine. U just get to be an angel who takes the money home. Well, at least a part of it.

If you want to be a part of my dream
If you want to at least listen to my ideas
If you have the money (at least some part of it) to solve my problems
And, only, If u believe in me

U’ll know where to find me…..

Love, cheers & moolah

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Straight Talking

These are questions I encounter everyday from someone or the other..

Most times, I do have the answer to them but I just couldn’t be bothered to reply, so I bluff my way through. They think I’m witty, I just think I’m nutty.

Sometimes, I marvel at their audacity to invite themselves into my space.

And, in one of those rare moments when an experience strikes you like summer lightening, I thank them for waking me upto the possibility of being alive.

Svety, are u doing something for urself? Left gymming?

When are u going to open the restaurant baby?

When are u ever going to learn to say No, anu?

You still don’t know how to manage your finances do you?

Are you ever going to leave pan parag?

Do you know you need to comb ur hair everday?

When will you really tell me what u’re feeling?

And, I could drone on…..

And then, there are others, I have no hope in hell of ever answering..

In these moments of ennui……nusrat helps…

"मैं तो इस वासते चुप हूँ की तमाशा न बने
तू समझता है मुझे तुझसे गिला कुछ भी नही"

No I’m not gymming. I’ve fallen off the bandwagon. Yet again. But that doesn’t mean I can’t get back on. Whenever.

I have no clue when I’m gonna open that restaurant..or, if I’m gonna open it…in my dreams I have done it a dozen times over.

What would you guys do if I learnt to say No?

I would manage my finances if I had any left.

Pan Parag ….u want me to stop lying too?

Hey I love gypsy hair…makes me look sassy.

The last one I have no smartass answer to….

All I can say in my defense is, I do care for the fact that my friends care enough to ask..

"अब न उठना सरहाने से मेरे
अब तो गिन्नती के दम रह गए हैं"

Friday, November 02, 2007

This Ones For The Sisterhood

Thank U Raysh & Parul for making me feel soooo good.....u know, i was always a tomboy and, got along famously with guys and never really clicked on more than a superficial level with the girls...

its amazing, this world that we have created of identities which are virtual but, friendships more fulfilling than in the real world...now i know i belong...luv ya all..