Friday, July 27, 2007

Its Never the Pace & Always the Space

I sit in my space and,
hope to
conquer, more space
by just operating within…

If only
conquests were so easy
to run by,
And, hope,
such a performer.

This space
has to change.
I win hearts over from this space.
I love, and,
am loved...
This space still has to change.

For me
to
lose myself
in this space,
This space has to change.

For me
to
be able to prove to myself,
That I have a heart and,
it beats,
This space has to change.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

The Haka extd.

On the 7th of May this year I wrote, 5 Down, 35 To Go.

On the 5th of June, this year, I wrote, 10 Down, 30 To Go.

On the 24th of July, today, I write, 15 Down, 25 To Go...

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Wanting To Be Yellow, Can't Get Over the Blue

Its been nearly a month since I last wrote.
Am feeling restless.
Screws up my Libran sense of balance and purpose when I feel like this।

I can’t even eat, to crush that feeling now।

Life seems to be standing still…..not that I don’t have enough to fill my day but, when has it ever been enough to just do that, right?

I’ll be 35 this year.
And, I haven’t even started on the things I really want to do.

Someone told me today u’re only as old as u feel.

The colour of today looks blue and I feel old…..not in the way I react to life…..no, I don’t think that has changed.
I feel old in the way I look at life………।

Heard these lines as a part of nusrat's quawalli....and they resonate every now and then when I'm pensive

उमर जलवों में बसर हो,यह ज़रूरी तो नही,
हर शब-ए-गम कि सहर हो,यह ज़रूरी तो नही,
नींद तो दर्द के बिस्तर पे भी आ सकती है,
तेरी आगोश में सिर हो,यह ज़रूरी तो नही

But then, yellow has been a forever favourite so am not alright with ending on this self absorbed note….so another one to bring back the smile on my face

जिस वक़्त खुदा ने तुम्हे बनाया होगा,
एक सरूर सा उसके दिल पे छाया होगा...
पहले सोचा होगा तुझे जन्नत में रख लूँ...
फिर उससे जू का ख़याल आया होगा

Aah, the zoo is a nice touch …I feel like that….captive, free, and just needing a little more to stretch….

Didn’t get the yellow right, did I??
Blue, it is today.