Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Wanting To Be Yellow, Can't Get Over the Blue

Its been nearly a month since I last wrote.
Am feeling restless.
Screws up my Libran sense of balance and purpose when I feel like this।

I can’t even eat, to crush that feeling now।

Life seems to be standing still…..not that I don’t have enough to fill my day but, when has it ever been enough to just do that, right?

I’ll be 35 this year.
And, I haven’t even started on the things I really want to do.

Someone told me today u’re only as old as u feel.

The colour of today looks blue and I feel old…..not in the way I react to life…..no, I don’t think that has changed.
I feel old in the way I look at life………।

Heard these lines as a part of nusrat's quawalli....and they resonate every now and then when I'm pensive

उमर जलवों में बसर हो,यह ज़रूरी तो नही,
हर शब-ए-गम कि सहर हो,यह ज़रूरी तो नही,
नींद तो दर्द के बिस्तर पे भी आ सकती है,
तेरी आगोश में सिर हो,यह ज़रूरी तो नही

But then, yellow has been a forever favourite so am not alright with ending on this self absorbed note….so another one to bring back the smile on my face

जिस वक़्त खुदा ने तुम्हे बनाया होगा,
एक सरूर सा उसके दिल पे छाया होगा...
पहले सोचा होगा तुझे जन्नत में रख लूँ...
फिर उससे जू का ख़याल आया होगा

Aah, the zoo is a nice touch …I feel like that….captive, free, and just needing a little more to stretch….

Didn’t get the yellow right, did I??
Blue, it is today.


Smiling Dolphin said...

sigh. how did you get the devanagiri script to work? and though i read the lines i couldn't make out head or tail, forget the blue and the yellow. you have succeeded in making your ex superboss feel like a mentally challenged dimwit! you are a very bad ball, a very bad ball indeed:-)

Simpu said...

Librans are more about the swings then about the balance - being one myself i can vouch for it completely....but thats the way we are - one day on the highest highs and other days on the lowest lows.

Reminds me of a qoute I once read:
Meet each day ever alike;
When u r the anvil bear,
When u r the hammer strike.

Milan said...

आईला सुभान अल्लाह !!! शाय्ररी and all ! Yaar ab ek piece shayari pur bhi dedicate kar do..